Heartache

You gave me heaven for a short time and now these thoughts won’t leave me
Another day goes by you smile, and I am stranded and cannot be
For you, you’re strong, move on you have. I am left so cold and numb
I wish you happiness deep inside, but outside want your tears to come
Know they won’t, you never felt as I do. Should have never told you
Left you my feelings, once again, as I know how and always do
No one in this world compares to what you gave and showed my eyes
But now I’m here and so confused, with an anger all I now despise
This mind of mine, disorder engulfed. Nowhere to turn I’ve lost it
Don’t know what to do in my life anymore, but hurt my body to soothe it
The pain one feels is deep as the ocean, the beauty of earth abandon
Just like you and others before, but blame I can’t put on you
Not your fault or mine I’d say, my brain just is not working
If I could change it, I surely would. Heal it without cursing
The life I’m given, the selfish genes, the despair I’m used to feeling
I ask you please a final time, a chance from you I’m begging
Know you won’t and why should you? She is yours, I can see
Move on along and heal myself, I need help. Please save me